So it's been 4 years, almost exactly, since I've used this blog. But seeing as I have a bunch of friends on my Twitter and Facebook and Tumblr, there's no other place I can post long streams of consciousness besides here, other than making a whole new site/blog/whatever. So here we are again.
Pretty much, a LOT has gone on in the years of being 20 to 24; a lot of very good things and a lot of pretty bad ones. But overall, the good has outweighed the bad. I know many more great, amazing, talented people that I'm glad to share the moments with. But enough about that.
Pretty much the main reason I had to write something was to just get it off of my chest. I'd contemplated just writing a blog like this in Word and just having it on the computer, but the slight prospect of someone finding this at some point or me rediscovering it after time has passed is more intriguing. As it stands now, any document on my computer isn't so easily found.
Right, the point of this. Well, Over the past year there has been a sudden influx of females in my life who I've laid with and been attracted to, yet none of them have turned out to be any sort of relationship. Some of that falls on me and my lack of substantial funding, but all in all it lies in the ether. I haven't any exact clue why things haven't worked out beyond a romp or a few dates, other than certain circumstances.
For one, it was her last day or so before leaving the country for a year. She's a great girl and a good friend, and in the back of my mind at least, I kind of knew it would happen eventually. A great experience overall.
For another, it was a few casual get-to-know-you type of dates which lead to her going back to college in the fall and us falling out of touch, what with her busy schedule. She's someone who I'd been attracted to her for years even without so much as meeting in person, but her late night Facebook message started the ball rolling and I knew I couldn't let the opportunity pass me by. She's technically my "one that got away" but I know we most likely would not work out in the end.
Yet another, she had been a really close, good friend for almost a year after just meeting through social media and realizing we'd be going to the same college. I'd been immediately attracted to her though she had lead me on for quite a long time as she had recently gotten out of a long relationship. Understandable sure, yet I grew frustrated after several months and we stopped talking. A few weeks later, we reconciled and made the decision to give it a go. Not everything went exactly to plan, but we had fun and found out what we had been wanting to know. In the end, it wasn't a match, but she's happy now, so that's where it ended.
And the most recent, at the end of the summer, at my best friend's wedding. We'd been the only single people in the wedding parties and got matched up together. After the night before getting to know each other and a fun filled day of an emotional roller coaster, our attraction to one another took over in the twilight and it was incredible. I felt something a little more that night, but I suppose I was more in amazement that this "straight out of a novel/movie/piece of fiction" could have happened to me. And as predicated, it's especially not something that happens to me and hadn't happened before. Nonetheless I was happy to oblige her requests and it was great. However, after returning home, it just didn't work out, for reasons that are ridiculous. But such is life,
Which finally brings me to the real reason I had come here to post. Recently, a girl I'd been attracted to, a friend of a friend, decided to come at me pretty fiercely with fried requests and tweets and an overall want to get ot know me better. Now, I know better, but I got my hopes up a little high this time. We'd conversed for days and generally made each other laugh, but I'd only met her IRL once, and it was mostly just a passing hello and some nonsense. But I definitely knew who she was, and until about a week before she'd messaged me, I'd completely forgotten about her. I'd had an opportunity to go out to see her last night, but overslept and blew it. Hopefully not the last time I get a chance, but judging by her lack of responses today, not likely. For such an attractive girl that has so many friends I figure it near impossible. But, then again, she reached out to me before I did anything remotely forward.
So, from this I hope that I get back on track. The year prior was complete shite in every aspect, yet this past year has made me hopeful for the future once again. I'm just going to try to land on my feet with my head held high and hope that eventually I can come home, or go home, to a lady that'll hold on while she sleeps. Those are really my favorite moments out of every relationship, and I always always always lay there with a huge grin and try to remember the feeling. Because it is always fleeting... and with each one, I'll never forget it.
Pretty much, a LOT has gone on in the years of being 20 to 24; a lot of very good things and a lot of pretty bad ones. But overall, the good has outweighed the bad. I know many more great, amazing, talented people that I'm glad to share the moments with. But enough about that.
Pretty much the main reason I had to write something was to just get it off of my chest. I'd contemplated just writing a blog like this in Word and just having it on the computer, but the slight prospect of someone finding this at some point or me rediscovering it after time has passed is more intriguing. As it stands now, any document on my computer isn't so easily found.
Right, the point of this. Well, Over the past year there has been a sudden influx of females in my life who I've laid with and been attracted to, yet none of them have turned out to be any sort of relationship. Some of that falls on me and my lack of substantial funding, but all in all it lies in the ether. I haven't any exact clue why things haven't worked out beyond a romp or a few dates, other than certain circumstances.
For one, it was her last day or so before leaving the country for a year. She's a great girl and a good friend, and in the back of my mind at least, I kind of knew it would happen eventually. A great experience overall.
For another, it was a few casual get-to-know-you type of dates which lead to her going back to college in the fall and us falling out of touch, what with her busy schedule. She's someone who I'd been attracted to her for years even without so much as meeting in person, but her late night Facebook message started the ball rolling and I knew I couldn't let the opportunity pass me by. She's technically my "one that got away" but I know we most likely would not work out in the end.
Yet another, she had been a really close, good friend for almost a year after just meeting through social media and realizing we'd be going to the same college. I'd been immediately attracted to her though she had lead me on for quite a long time as she had recently gotten out of a long relationship. Understandable sure, yet I grew frustrated after several months and we stopped talking. A few weeks later, we reconciled and made the decision to give it a go. Not everything went exactly to plan, but we had fun and found out what we had been wanting to know. In the end, it wasn't a match, but she's happy now, so that's where it ended.
And the most recent, at the end of the summer, at my best friend's wedding. We'd been the only single people in the wedding parties and got matched up together. After the night before getting to know each other and a fun filled day of an emotional roller coaster, our attraction to one another took over in the twilight and it was incredible. I felt something a little more that night, but I suppose I was more in amazement that this "straight out of a novel/movie/piece of fiction" could have happened to me. And as predicated, it's especially not something that happens to me and hadn't happened before. Nonetheless I was happy to oblige her requests and it was great. However, after returning home, it just didn't work out, for reasons that are ridiculous. But such is life,
Which finally brings me to the real reason I had come here to post. Recently, a girl I'd been attracted to, a friend of a friend, decided to come at me pretty fiercely with fried requests and tweets and an overall want to get ot know me better. Now, I know better, but I got my hopes up a little high this time. We'd conversed for days and generally made each other laugh, but I'd only met her IRL once, and it was mostly just a passing hello and some nonsense. But I definitely knew who she was, and until about a week before she'd messaged me, I'd completely forgotten about her. I'd had an opportunity to go out to see her last night, but overslept and blew it. Hopefully not the last time I get a chance, but judging by her lack of responses today, not likely. For such an attractive girl that has so many friends I figure it near impossible. But, then again, she reached out to me before I did anything remotely forward.
So, from this I hope that I get back on track. The year prior was complete shite in every aspect, yet this past year has made me hopeful for the future once again. I'm just going to try to land on my feet with my head held high and hope that eventually I can come home, or go home, to a lady that'll hold on while she sleeps. Those are really my favorite moments out of every relationship, and I always always always lay there with a huge grin and try to remember the feeling. Because it is always fleeting... and with each one, I'll never forget it.
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